I drew a lot of the inspiration for this particular series of photographs from my old journals. I used to jot down a few phrases or thoughts every day when I was younger (now, it’s more like never-ending monologues on screen) and a lot of them were about the people I’d met along the way – my characters, as I called them. I rarely mentioned their actual names in these notebooks, rather they were always sort of archetypal and drawn into caricatures of the real people behind the names. So if I had to say who this particular series is about, I’d be lying if I mentioned a name. Hence, the Ghost.
It’s also the idea of a person – maybe someone you’ve never met, someone you only saw from afar and constructed your world around. Because a lot of the time, it’s easier to be in love with shadows. Flesh is messy. Thinking of people three-dimensionally can hurt. To make life less complicated, I deal with monochrome, with blacks and whites. Sometimes grays. I construct two categories for each love affair, each memory, and put them safely in a box. The light, the unbearable.
This is the black and white version of the photos, as I’d originally imagined for the series but I’ll be putting up a color version later as well because I like to do everything in two’s. : )
~ The Light ~
~ The Unbearable ~